I can see where she's coming from, but HELL! She didn't even try to raise me right! She never had me help cook dinner, do the laundry, or clean the dishes. Now she's fucking angry at me for leaving my dinner plate by the computer last night! I CAN'T HELP IT IF I'M AT SCHOOL ALL DAY LONG WITH A FUCKING COLD AND THEN HAVE TO GO TO MY FUCKING JOB AND THEN GET HOME AND DO MY HOMEWORK! Plus, she knows I don't eat steak. Hell, I tried to eat the damned stuff (and my cat jumped up and stuck his face in my plate, so that was the end of my appetite).

She sleeps in my bedroom, so when I went to take a shower she told me not to wash my dish if our housemates were in the kitchen. They were still in the kitchen when I finished my shower (which was around midnight) so I went to bed. SO NOT MY FAULT THAT IT DIDN'T GET DONE! What was I supposed to do, wait until five in the morning to go wash my fucking dish?

Then she goes and says she's not going to get me a car (it was debatable already...I'd rather have the $200 she was going to give me than the car). Not like I was going to be able to afford gas, or insurance, with my stupid $15/month paycheck. The only college I can get into right now is NOVA because of the instability in our life bringing my grades down. I'm trying my hardest. I have at least a B in all my classes! Sure NOVA's a community college, but it's the top community college in the country!

She always gets on my case about wanting to major in music/performing arts! I'M COMPOSING MUSIC AND I'M EIGHTEEN DAMN IT! I don't want to do anything else, there's just nothing that interests me. I was going to apply to other colleges just to see if I could get in, but the deadlines have passed. Now she tells me that when I graduate from high school I'm not going to live with her. If I had money I'd be fine with that, but HELLO! I'M FUCKING BROKE! Graduation is in June! Then she goes out of her way to say, and I quote: "By the way, the shelters are full too." And she comes back into my room to basically tell me to go join the military and die.

Fuck it...just fuck my life. I don't give a shit anymore.